I’m totally manic. My poor, wonderful husband. Yesterday I was filled with sadness. Knowing that I would have to wait another cycle was almost unacceptable. Waiting another cycle made me feel helpless. I just want to feel like I’m doing something. I was mad at my body for doing what it should. Shame on me. During all of the IUIs, I wanted AF to arrive as soon as it was confirmed it didn’t work. This most recent cycle, I wanted to stretch out as long as possible so it wouldn’t mess with my “plans.” Shame on me again. Patience is a must in parenthood and I didn’t do well on this test. I’d like to think it was my hormones. Let’s go with that. Clean slate moving forward, k?
I called my RE today and I have two pieces of good news. 😀
- They’re going to see if my IVF and Follistim will be covered under an available grant! They think it will. Isn’t that awesome?!
- Although I’m out of town CD18-24, they’ve agreed to see me on CD17 to clear me to begin meds on CD21. This isn’t a wasted cycle! It’s just delayed by a couple of weeks by starting meds on CD21 instead of CD2.
I am absolutely thrilled!!! Or as my husband thinks, I’m absolutely manic. Either way, I’ll take it.
P.S. Thank you to all of my readers and commenters for your support. It means so much. I think only you truly know the crazies I’m dealing with. **HUGS**