I had another blood draw and ultrasound this morning. This one was *much* easier to deal with knowing what I was walking into. The nurse even complimented my attitude. She said that my attitude combined with our 11 embabies will result in another pregnancy. She said there’s often not hope for couples after a certain point, but she said that’s not us. It made me smile.
But then… DUN DUN DUN… The nurse just called with beta #7 results, which came back at 2,100 (up from 1,600 last Thursday). Unfortunately things are not decreasing like they should. Can you effing believe this crap?! What can’t it just go down?! This is totally tormenting me! What a rollercoaster! The nurse, again, said it’s not a viable pregnancy because the numbers aren’t rising like they should. I guess my body really likes being pregnant. It seems to really be holding on. Now all we need is a viable embryo.
Hopefully this process gets underway soon. Every time I feel something wet down there, I hope for blood. I never thought I would say that. It’s totally weird to be on this side of the fence. If things don’t start happening on their own, we might have to schedule a D&C but I really want to avoid it if I can. On the flip side, I really want this over with. I have acupuncture tomorrow so hopefully that will help move things along. I go back for beta #8 on Monday.
As you can see, there’s still a little spot where the cells never continued to grow. A spot that almost became our baby. I am so very thankful that we never saw a heartbeat. I would have been 7w2d today. That is that last time I will count, I promise.
I did get some good news today. I got the official okay from my RE today to have intercourse! So honey, IT’S Y(OUR) LUCKY DAY! Woohoo! Maybe a good orgasm can get things moving in there. It’s been A MONTH since I last had sexual relations with my husband. It’s seriously ridiculous and unacceptable. There’s a silver lining in every ugly situation. This lining is extremely bright shining silver. I’ve been missing the closeness that making loves brings. I need some closeness right about now.