Wow, the embryo decision is so tough! We met with the RE yesterday morning and right off the bat, he recommended that we transfer three embryos this time. Then we reminded him of our lack of desire for multiples and he promptly changed his opinion to two embryos. Then I explained that I really, really needed this to work. I’m going to be 35 in less than a month! I’ve been pumping my body full of meds for a year! We’ve been trying for 2.5 years! I can’t take another failure. Then he said he was fine with three because he didn’t want me to blame him if it didn’t work. So much for a professional opinion!
We left with the decision that we’d transfer three embryos, but we’re still on the fence. We might call to change it to two next week. I don’t know what to do. Frozen embryos have a lower success rate than fresh, so maybe we should stick with three. But we know two almost worked for us last time. I should just trust you guys. The majority of you voted for three. I really wish this wasn’t such a game of chance. I want scientific support for my decision-making! Argh!
I think this would be easier for me if the medicated FET process didn’t take so long. Why do we have to do so much suppression? Can’t we try something that more closely mimics a normal cycle? (My RE’s answer is no.) From the date of the first AF to the beta it’s a total of 6 weeks and 6 days. That’s an extra 3 weeks! Almost a whole new cycle! If it weren’t for the extra time a medicated FET adds, I think I’d be on board with two embryos because if it didn’t work I would know that within 2 to 3 weeks I’d be PUPO again.
Maybe we should try two this time and get a second opinion from an RE who would be open to trying something different next time if this try doesn’t work. But wouldn’t I have to start getting my second opinion right now in order to be ready to start a new cycle right away? Would I feel guilty discussing “next time” with a new RE if I could possibly be pregnant from my current cycle? Omg, sorry – totally rambling my anxious train of thought right now.
I’m getting way too ahead of myself. Whatever we decide, this cycle is GOING TO MOTHERFUCKING WORK.
Other than that, my appointment was uneventful. My lady parts looked good and my lining was 8mm. I’ll discontinue the Lupron* after tonight (yay!) and I’ll start PIO on July 3rd. The transfer will be on the 8th and my beta will be on the 20th. Now if we could just settle on our decision on the number of embryos to transfer. Siiigh. And trust me, I get it. I’m pinching myself that I’m even lucky enough to have this decision to make.
* I managed to give myself only one bruise and it’s a really nasty one. I’ve named it Bruce.