I must admit, I’m really surprised that this cycle didn’t work. Especially after near success last time! And no, I don’t regret not putting back three embryos but I can guarantee you that we’re putting back three next time – no question about it. All the embryos we have left are “very good.” If we’re lucky we have two more tries.
All in all, I’m dealing with this just fine. It is what it is and there’s nothing I can do to change the outcome. There’s nothing I could have done differently. I feel mad at my uterus, though. I’m sad for my husband. We both want this so badly.
I used a FRER so today’s test should be accurate (I tested at 10dp5dt last time and got a very strong second line). I think I’ll discontinue meds immediately so AF shows up sooner. I suspect she’ll be here by Thursday and I can begin FET #3 right away. I’ll also call tomorrow to schedule my first ever WTF appointment for Wednesday, following my beta on Tuesday. I can’t believe I have to wait until Tuesday to confirm what I already know.
So what questions should I ask at my WTF appointment? I’m definitely going to ask about immunology testing. Maybe adding IVIG or heparin will help with implantation. I know it’s controversial, so I bet my RE doesn’t support immunology testing and treatments. I might have to push for that one. Maybe we’ll even look into PGD, but I don’t know if we have enough embryos for that. I’m not ready for another fresh IVF cycle, but I’m curious what my RE thinks. I’m also going to ask about a medicated FET cycle that follows my natural cycle, such as taking Clomid, triggering, and then doing the transfer 5 days later. Maybe my body needs to feel like it’s actually ovulating. Maybe another IUI with injectables would be good to try, too. What would you add to the list? I’ll do some research between now and Wednesday, but any advice you can offer would be great.
I haven’t spent much time thinking about plan B during this cycle; however, now that we’re staring plan B in the face I better get planning. I purposely didn’t want to plan for the worst case scenario (since I always tend to do that) and I wanted to stay as positive as possible this cycle but if FET #3 doesn’t work, I want next steps in place. I’m going to start researching new REs in NYC so any suggestions you have in this area would also be welcome. I’m specifically looking for one who has lots of experience in solving unexplained cases. I hope we don’t have to go there but I want to start scheduling appointments for second opinions now. What will I need for these meetings – just records from my current RE? Maybe the lab reports for my embryos too?
Wow, I never thought this would be me. Two years and nearly seven months of TTC, four IUIs, three rounds of IVF cycles, countless acupuncture sessions, one miscarriage, and no baby. Unexplained diagnosis (bullshit! there has to be something wrong!). Oh, and to top it off, today I turned 35. Happy Birthday to me. Thank God I have a strong marriage and the best husband in the world. My DH is my saving grace. I love that man.
Thanks for all of your support and well wishes. You can uncross your fingers and toes now. I’ll let you know when I need them again.
Off to salvage my birthday! I’m thinking there will be lots of sex, champagne, and exercise in my future! Well, maybe only a little champagne. I think I’ll stay off the sauce for the most part. Man, I’m getting boring! No caffeine! No alcohol! Snore!