I wasn’t going to participate in ICLW this month, but here I find myself in a very repetitive situation (BFN land, if you know what I mean) and honestly, I selfishly need the support. I am dealing with this latest BFN okay, I’m just getting tired. Tired of needles. Tired of drugs. Tired of putting my life on hold. Tired of fake drinking. Tired of avoiding foods I love. Tired of rules on my sex life. Tired of seeing everyone else pass me by in the baby department.
But as usual, I will persevere. There is no sense in dwelling in what is not because in this particular case, there’s nothing I can do about the not part. I do believe in my heart of hearts that we will be parents one day. I just can’t believe we were the “1” out of 7 couples who had to be affected by infertility. And on top of that, we have to be one of the mysterious 10% (or is it more?) of unresolved cases. Please, ART, work for us!
Here’s a very brief download on me: just turned 35, married almost 7 years, TTC since January 2008, unexplained, 4 Clomid IUIs, 1 IVF (single embryo transfer), 2 FETs (2 embryos transferred), one blighted ovum after FET #1. We have six embryos left. We’ll put back 3 for FET #3, while we explore second opinions. My WTF appointment is this morning. Wish me luck!
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