I can’t believe I’ve had a blog for three years. Hell, I can’t believe it took us almost three years to get pregnant. I started this blog a few months into our TTC journey. I needed a place to share my thoughts and frustrations so I didn’t have to constantly burden my husband. What I ended up getting in return was an amazing network of virtual — and now some real life — friends. Pure awesomeness.
A year ago I was going through a miscarriage. I don’t like to think about that time but I went back to read some posts from then and I was actually rather optimistic. I suppose that’s not surprising because that’s how I deal with shit. It’s like alright, this is happening, there’s nothing I can do to change it so let’s deal with it and move on.
And it did happen, and I did move on. And here I am one year, 3 transfers and 8 embryos later, 6 months pregnant with twins. Amazing.
I have said this so many times, but this blog — and those that followed and commented — has been such a gift to me. I know I’ve undoubtedly lost some readers that are unfortunately stuck on the IF roller coaster, but I’ve also gained some new ones who are in different phases of their journeys. I hope that what I’ve shared here over the years can still be useful to someone stuck on the roller coaster and I hope you get off quickly.
My advice to you: if you’ve been at it a while with the same RE without results, switch REs pronto. Try new things. Don’t give up hope. Find ways to relax. Don’t dwell in the sadness. It will happen. Oh, and try not to add up the money spent on repeated cycles. Bad idea.
I don’t know what will become of this blog. It’s the typical IFer-gets-pregnant dilemma, right? Now that my life isn’t driven by hormone levels and injections and dates with the dildocam, I don’t have as much to blog about. My pregnancy is going swimmingly (fingers crossed it stays that way). I’m not obsessed with the roller coaster any more. These things combined = BORING.
I suppose I’ll keep up with the weekly updates at a minimum and I’ll have to share my birth story and finally reveal the babies’ genders when the time comes. But after that? I’m not so sure. Time will tell. Maybe this blog will shift to being about breastfeeding and sleepless nights. If so, I don’t think “Venting Vagina” will be the right name. We shall see!
I cannot believe that this time next year, I will have two 9 month olds!!! I am humbled. I am so so SO excited for this new chapter. I can’t wait to be a mother and see my husband become a father. I can’t wait to be a family. Three more months! Come on, babies, bake for 3 more months!