Time goes by so quickly!

Hello?! Anyone still there?

I think it might be time to retire this blog. I know, I know. Same old story about the infertile who transitioned into motherhood, yadda yadda yadda. It’s just that I hardly have time to pee, let alone write. And no one really reads this anymore, anyway.

For posterity, here’s the latest in bullet form:
– Being a mother is the most demanding, yet rewarding job ever. Second guessing myself is standard. How can you not?! Your decisions are shaping these precious little lives that you created and nurtured in your belly for 9 months.
– Baby E is 4 months already. He’s so good natured and I adore spending time with him. His smiles, coos and giggles melt my heart.
– Spending one on one time with a singleton is so powerful. I wish I could have had this with the twins.
– Breastfeeding finally got on track. So much so, that I have 600+oz frozen. I’m so very proud of this achievement.
– I went back to work a month ago. It’s harder this time. I have less brain space or something. I am able to work from home on Wednesdays so I’ll only ever be away from E and nursing for 2 days at the most.
– Being off work was great. I was able to do so much more with the twins — lunches, classes and events. Getting to know our nanny better has been great, too.
– The twins are officially two (well 27 months now). The terrible twos are no joke but after a terrible day, they give you a few amazing days and you kinda sorta forget about the not so amazing day.
– The twins are talking up a storm. They have a crazy vocab and are doing all that counting/alphabet jazz. Even reciting their favorite books. Communicating with them is awesome.
– They’re very into Lightning McQueen and Legos. And they mastered their new scooters in less than a month (but mama still hasn’t had the nerve to take them outside).
– They are fascinated by “What Does The Fox Say.”
– I never dressed them the same (sometimes in similar outfits but different colors) but at this age they fight over differences so I find myself buying more matching things, which I sort of despise. But hey! Happy kids!
– Oh, and they’re obsessed with shoes.
– H & P have the most beautiful eyelashes.
– They transitioned to toddler beds fine. The hard part maybe lasted a week.
– Starting to think about preschool for next fall. This is not early in NYC. If anything, I’m behind.
– I’m pretty sure our family of 5 is perfect. I say “pretty sure” because the renewal for our embryo storage just came and we paid it. We have one lone PGD-perfect embryo on ice. The gender is sealed up in an envelope and I’ve never peeked. We might peek next year. If it’s a girl, might be kind of hard to resist trying one last FET. But I’m pretty sure we’re done. Hell, I’m so lucky we even made it this far!
– My husband and I celebrated 10 years of marriage in August! Always planned to do a Fiji trip after a decade, but I’ll take a new baby and a jiggly postpartum belly any day. Fiji can wait. We headed back to the Midwest to shown off our cuties to family instead. πŸ™‚

This blog has been the most amazing outlet. Getting out my thoughts and feelings was a therapy of sorts. I was provided support through a loving community and I hope I was able to provide support in return. I’ve cried and hoped with many struggling women, many who’ve gone on as I did to become mothers. Not everyone, though, and my heart aches for those who haven’t met their babies yet.

Not a day goes by that I’m not grateful for these three beautiful children. The scars of infertility are there and always will be, but I’m very well aware of where I came from. For those of you still struggling, you all deserve to be mamas.

If any of you last remaining stragglers are interested in staying in touch, leave a comment and we can exchange emails. Xo.

9 responses to “Time goes by so quickly!

  1. I am really happy everything worked out for you, including your little miracle. It’s funny how life changes after. We are now in the process of attempting #2. Trying naturally but failing miserably so back to IVF in January! Good luck with it all!!

  2. Lindsay Dyeas

    I have LOVED keeping up with your family and would love to still get updates. I two struggled with infertility but have two precious boys that were conceived through infertility treatments. You story gives me hope that just maybe we can conceive a third or fourth πŸ˜‰ baby naturally. Best wishes and so glad to hear that y’all are all doing so well! Lindsay

  3. Samantha

    I’m still here! It’s so nice to hear that you and your family are doing well. It’s been quite the journey since we first met online (I think in 2009?). All the best to you!

    Samantha from cherrypietwins.blogspot.com

  4. I can’t remember if I ever left a message but I always loved reading your posts and so when I saw your latest one in my inbox I got very excited. I have b/g twins who are 29 months now had who were conceived through fertility treatment. I’m starting to wonder whether to try our frozen embryos now but just not sure. Would love to know what having just one baby is like but then I’m just so thrilled (obviously) with my two and I don’t know if I’d be doing it for the right reason or whether I’d cope. Would be better if it just happened naturally without me even trying and then I’d have to go along with it πŸ™‚ Great to hear that life is very good for you all anyway.

  5. Please keep writing. Even if it’s from time to time. Many of us follow your trail and it’s refreshing to know the experiences every step of the way. I’m a Dad, well, hoping to be one very soon. And it’s unbelievable the supporting community that is out there. Thanks to people like you who understand. Nobody else will every understand our journey. Thank you for making it a little better and giving us that ray of hope we all live and breathe for one day at a time. We are hoping to have a successful end like yours. But we have just begun as we are entering our 9th week. Thank You Again! pigloveseven.blogspot.com

  6. I still read! I am a terrible blogger and commenter, but I really love keeping up with the ladies with whom I was “in the trenches”! If you are really going to stop updating, I would love to keep up, even if sporadically!

  7. rainbowsreborn

    It’s so lovely to hear from you again. So glad to hear all about your wonderful babies (erm, kids now?!) Time goes by so quickly…would love to stay in touch πŸ™‚ xxx

  8. Khaira

    I have followed for a while now, was so happy you had those twins and your surprise. 600oz in the freezer is amazing I still worry about milk even on baby 3! Congrats on everything! Would be hard to resist a little girl πŸ˜‰

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After nearly 3 years of TTC and the help of ART, we got pregnant on our 5th IVF/FET transfer after IVF #2. Our beautiful fraternal twin boys were born on 7/15/11 at 37w0d.

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