[ This blog is a collection of vents having to do with the trials of conceiving a child. Thankfully I’m not in this alone. I have my husband and wine. ]
Hi. I’m R., a very happy girl in my almost mid-30s with a wonderful little bit younger husband/best friend (7 years of marriage!) and we’re finally ready we’ve been trying to expand our family since January 2008. Why am I telling you this? Because we’re keeping it between us which means I have no one else to tell! I decided to start this blog as a way to get some stuff off of my chest. I want to capture the emotions and frustrations of trying to conceive, and
hopefully finally! the news of a baby on board followed by the chronicles of pregnancy and a healthy birth.
I am making an effort to not refer to myself as an “infertile.” I think of myself as “fertility challenged.” I also refuse to number this upcoming IVF cycle. I only numbered my IUIs after the first one didn’t turn out the way we wanted. I’m also trying to stop referring to the “results” each cycle as being a “success” or a “failure.” Nature is taking it course, with the help of our RE (reproductive endocrinologist). Sometimes things don’t work out the way you want it, but it doesn’t mean it was a “FAILURE.” It just means you have to keep trying.
I’m an infertile (I can admit it now) who seems to be adept at dealing with repetitive failure quite well. I have come a long way since January 2008 and I think I have acupuncture and my loving, supportive husband to thank for that. I do believe that we will be parents one day. Why this path has become our path is a mystery to us, but I believe in my heart that we’ll be better parents because of it.
Our diagnosis is unexplained. We had every test under the sun — hysteroscopy and endometrial biopsy, DQ Alpha testing, Natural Killer assay testing, karyotyping, thrombophilia panel (I do have MTHFR; I’m homozygous with 2 copies of the c-mutation), and even PGD — and we still have no answers. But thankfully, we’re finally pregnant!
Sometimes I post about things that have little to nothing to do with trying to conceive. I post funny things I come across like lady bit crafts and [WARNING] cute little kid videos. Sometimes I share news that I come across that might be relevant to TTCing, or sometimes it’s just interesting. And sometimes I share pregnancy-related items. Hey, I’m gonna need them someday, right?!