Who Am I?

[ This blog is a collection of vents having to do with the trials of conceiving a child. Thankfully I’m not in this alone. I have my husband and wine. ]

Hi. I’m R., a very happy girl in my almost mid-30s with a wonderful little bit younger husband/best friend (7 years of marriage!) and we’re finally ready we’ve been trying to expand our family since January 2008. Why am I telling you this? Because we’re keeping it between us which means I have no one else to tell! I decided to start this blog as a way to get some stuff off of my chest. I want to capture the emotions and frustrations of trying to conceive, and hopefully finally!  the news of a baby on board followed by the chronicles of pregnancy and a healthy birth.

I am making an effort to not refer to myself as an “infertile.” I think of myself as “fertility challenged.” I also refuse to number this upcoming IVF cycle. I only numbered my IUIs after the first one didn’t turn out the way we wanted. I’m also trying to stop referring to the “results” each cycle as being a “success” or a “failure.” Nature is taking it course, with the help of our RE (reproductive endocrinologist). Sometimes things don’t work out the way you want it, but it doesn’t mean it was a “FAILURE.” It just means you have to keep trying.

I’m an infertile (I can admit it now) who seems to be adept at dealing with repetitive failure quite well. I have come a long way since January 2008 and I think I have acupuncture and my loving, supportive husband to thank for that. I do believe that we will be parents one day. Why this path has become our path is a mystery to us, but I believe in my heart that we’ll be better parents because of it.

Our diagnosis is unexplained. We had every test under the sun — hysteroscopy and endometrial biopsy, DQ Alpha testing, Natural Killer assay testing, karyotyping, thrombophilia panel (I do have MTHFR; I’m homozygous with 2 copies of the c-mutation), and even PGD — and we still have no answers. But thankfully, we’re finally pregnant!

Sometimes I post about things that have little to nothing to do with trying to conceive. I post funny things I come across like lady bit crafts and [WARNING] cute little kid videos. Sometimes I share news that I come across that might be relevant to TTCing, or sometimes it’s just interesting. And sometimes I share pregnancy-related items. Hey, I’m gonna need them someday, right?!

P.S. If you like the look of my blog, email my friend Alison from The Privileged Infertile to get your own pretty design!