Vaginaless Girl Gets Knocked Up

WTF?! What a wacky story! This vaginaless girl gets caught with another man in the act of oral sex by her boyfriend. Boyfriend freaks out and girlfriend gets stabbed in the stomach. Apparently the girl swallowed and some how those swimmers made it through her stomach acid, out of her stomach, down her abdomen and into her ovaries or fallopian tube conveniently when she was ovulating. This bitch gets knocked up! What?! Seriously?! Read more here.

AF, I’m Happy to See You

Aunt Flo has arrived! I’ve never been so happy to see her! Her early appearance is a consolation prize for my BFN. I’m so glad I stopped progesterone early. I haaaate waiting. I’ll go in tomorrow for a CD2 scan and begin Lupron tomorrow night. The 4 week countdown to FET has begun!

UPDATE: She tricked me. She still hasn’t arrived officially. She’s letting me know she’s almost here. My RE isn’t in tomorrow so I’ll go in on Thursday for blood work and ultrasound to get my all clear to start Lupron.

IVF: Next Steps

When I went in for my beta this morning, I grabbed to nurse the discuss next steps. She and my RE refused to believe my test was negative, but I assured them I was right. I asked how soon we can begin FET and I was expecting to hear CD21 (with transfer 4 weeks later) because that’s what I found on Dr. Google. I was thrilled to hear that I can get started right away on CD2! I’ll go in for a CD2 ultrasound and if all is well, I’ll begin Lupron. The transfer will be about 4 weeks later. Woo hoo!

That means I’ll be PUPO again within one month! I’m so glad I stopped progesterone because AF should be here any minute.

I’m sooo ready to get this show on the road … again! But this time it will work for real.

UPDATE: Just got the call. Negative beta confirmed. Is it weird that I’m so super excited for the upcoming FET that I don’t even care about the negative beta? Meds are ordered. This show is officially ON THE ROAD! Now we just need dear old AF to do her thing and make an appearance.

5 Women, 10 Vaginas

What the what?! Awesome. Maybe if I had two vaginas I could actually get pregnant.

Feeling Okay

Thank you so very much for  your comments. It really means a lot. I’m not in a bad place. Yes, a BFN is very disappointing but we knew what we were getting ourselves into with only transferring one embryo. We had so many embryos and we really wanted to avoid multiples. We had to give it a try. We have plenty more tries, assuming our embies make it through the thaw. My lab used vitrification on day 4 which is supposed to yield better survival rates, so I’m hoping a majority of our bakers dozen makes it into my womb at some point. It’s kinda weird to think about. I have frozen embies on ice that may become my child one day soon.

I tried to stay optimistic, but I honestly knew it was over when the OHSS symptoms started to subside earlier this week. The doctor made it clear that my ovaries were already quite large and if I were to get pregnant, it would likely get worse. My bloating went down and my ovaries stopped hurting when I tried to sleep on my side. I actually feel completely normal now and have for the past 4 days or so. I knew what today would bring. That’s why I put off POAS for so long.

Regardless, we did everything right. It didn’t work because we fell on the other side of the odds. It’s nothing more than that. We’re not broken. It’s not the end of the world. It will work in time. I will resume yoga tomorrow and after my next scan, I’ll begin working out again. That will be a major bonus of doing an FET. My ovaries won’t be gigantic so I’ll be able to exercise and exercise makes me feel good.

I appreciate your comments about hopefulness but I’ve been through this enough times to know that a HPT doesn’t lie at 14DPO. I’m stopping progesterone injections and now we’ll wait for AF to arrive so we can get the FET show on the road. I still have to go in for my beta on Monday. Monday afternoon I’ll get the call. It will go something like this:

Nurse: I’m sorry. Your beta was negative.

Me: Yeah, I know.

Nurse: Why? Did your period start?

Me: No. I tested at home.

I hope they’ll let me begin the FET cycle right away. I think I could begin Lupron on day 21. Fingers crossed. Xo.

10dp4dt – Test Day

2/6 – 10dpt…HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT

14DPO. Peed on a stick. Results: let me put it to you this way – I’m drinking champagne and not because I’m celebrating. Oh well, it wasn’t guaranteed. Onward and upward.

9dp4dt

2/5 – 9dpt…More HCG is produced as fetus develops

13DPO. Last night I has two very interesting dreams. The first I was back at the embryo transfer. Rather than the doctor showing me a photo of our perfect embryo, he let me hold it in the palm of my hand. It was a tiny baby blue blob that was super soft and squishy. The doctor let me hold another embryo that was a little bigger because it was apparently a little more developed. When he plucked it out of the palm of my hand, some liquid squirted out. This, of course, upset me but the doctor just put a needle in the palm of my hand and sucked up all the liquid. I guess he was going to put it back in the blue blob. Weird.

The next dream was about POAS. I woke up (in my dream) and peed on a stick. It was immediately positive so I excitedly called for my husband. Before he could arrive I accidentally dropped the stick in the cup of pee and the lines disappeared. We went to the drug store and got a 2-pack of tests and promptly came home to test again. Both tests immediately turned up with two pink lines. I hope it’s a good sign and not just wishful thinking.

One day to go! Siiiigh.

8dp4dt

2/4 – 8dpt…More HCG is produced as fetus develops

Today’s boring post is brought to  you by Chickening Out.

12DPO. I was planning to test tomorrow which would be 9dp4dt or 13DPO, but I’ve decided to wait until Saturday. No matter what the results, I don’t think I’ll be able to focus that day so it’s best I wait to test on the weekend.

I’m feeling meh. I’m not feeling badly per se, but I guess being in this state of limbo just sucks. I’m not expecting symptoms. I wish it worked like that, but for most of us it doesn’t. My mild OHSS has subsided, thankfully. My boobs are sore and huge. I have lots of watery, yet creamy CM. Yesterday I had a lingering headache all day. Basically I’m saying that your guess is as good as mine. I have absolutely no idea if this worked. Of course, I’m staying optimistic but all I can do is wait.

I don’t need to think about what I’ll do to celebrate if it’s positive, because that’s all the celebration I need, but I have thought about what I’ll do if it’s negative. I’ll have sex, have a glass (or bottle) of wine, drink some fully caffeinated coffee, schedule a spa day, plan a last minute trip somewhere fun, and prepare for a FET. But I don’t need to go there, because this worked. I am pregnant. I am knocked up. (Just go along, please. Positive thinking.)

Saturday can’t get here soon enough! I’ll have to work the weekend as well but I’m planning to go in late so I can spend time with my husband once we get the results. Either way there will be tears so I need time to make sure my eyes aren’t all poofy.

7dp4dt

2/3 – 7dpt…Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood

Today’s boring post brought to you by The Bump.

11DPO. No, not that kind of bump. This kind of bump. Notice any similarities?

Food Habits

I’m a big foodie and I hope to not have to change my eating habits too much while I’m knocked up. Of course, I’ll do whatever is right for my baby but I will not be scared off from sushi or cheeses all together. Moderation will obviously be important, but the likelihood of something major happening is very slim. Take the Japanese, for example. They eat sushi while pregnant. As a matter of fact, they believe it is critical to the development of the fetus. And look at the French! They eat soft cheese and drink wine like nobody’s business while preggers.

I’m sure there will be much more to come on this topic, but I am pleased to tell you that according to a recent study a little bacon aint gonna hurt ya! Yeeesss! (In moderation, I know!)

…scientists have found that eating a plate of bacon and eggs could help pregnant women boost the intelligence of their unborn child.

6dp4dt

2/2 – 6dpt…Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells

Today’s boring post brought to you by Progesterone in Oil!

10DPO. All I have to say today is that I really like progesterone. It makes my boobs hurt and I find comfort in that. My boobs are also huge! Love it! The PIO shots aren’t as horrible as I was expecting either. I alternate sides and yes, it’s tender for a day but nothing too terrible. I can totally do this for 12 weeks. No problem!

I’m also exhausted today. So tired. I cut out caffeine so that’s not an option for an afternoon pick me up. I’m just hoping I’m so tired because I’m busy growing a baby and not because I’m working too hard! Grow baby, grow! Snuggle on in.

So Dumb

Yes, ridiculous but I happen to love this site! I have to assume most people are purposefully asking dumb questions only to elicit silly responses. Very entertaining, I might add.

5dp4dt

2/1 – 5dpt…Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining

9DPO. I worked a 12 hour day today. It’s safe to say that I didn’t have much time to think about anything related to my womb. My Gripe Water post was completely fitting for today. First day back after a 3-day break in the middle of an understaffed super busy project was not pleasant. I was irritated all day. Then around 5pm my client emails to tell us to expect to work all weekend. Awesome, right? Icing on the cake.

Whatevs! It’ll make test day arrive even sooner.

Happy February!

Day 4 Transfer

We always knew we’d have a 4 or 5 day transfer. We ended up with a 4 day transfer and I actually forgot to ask why, but I figure the sooner the embryo is back in my womb the better, right? I was curious so I did a bit of digging around for more information. Here’s some information about a day 4 transfer from research at an Arizona fertility center that I thought was interesting so I wanted to share:

Through IVF studies performed by Dr Jun Tao, FTC’s Laboratory Director, it has been proven that Day 4 embryos that are showing signs of advanced development have a better selection value compared with those on Day 3. Not only have these embryos activated their genes, but they also indicate that the embryo has reached a more advanced stage. Further IVF research demonstrates that Day 4 embryos are the most stable embryo stage for freezing, thawing and transfer. Another major advantage to transferring an embryo on Day 4 is eliminating the need to transfer more embryos to achieve adequate pregnancy rates due to improved embryo grading and selection. This nearly eliminates the chances of pregnancies with triplets or greater, the biggest risk to a continued healthy pregnancy.

Gripe Water

I stumbled upon this recently in a spice store and I couldn’t resist capturing a photo. It’s Gripe Water which apparently helps soothe a baby’s colic and upset tummy. What a great name for a product! If it wasn’t created in the 1800s it would totally be assumed that it was a joke. I guess that’s why it caught my eye.

Today I have to go back to work and I feel like I should give myself a spoonful of Gripe Water to get over my strong desire to have more bed rest.